woah!.been quite long since i stayed up so late LOL.dun like the feeling of staying up late recently..so slept VERY early..about 8+?LOL..tt's kinda ridiculous =\

anw..back from this magic show in esplanade..i shld say a gd experience for me LOL..

hmm..work was the same..maybe some new stuff tmr..was talking to wilson..oh well..his words were comforting though...told him abt my stuff...my worries..my plans....hopefully wad he said comes true..

im kinda...lost..i really hope nth ever changes..but tt's simply impossible..everything change ..every day..every min and every sec..i just din grab it..my opportunity..and missed it..

however..i believe.no matter how sucky..god is fair..i realise i began to live the the life of HOPE..hoping for this and that..maybe i shld do something instead of hoping for this and that..

oh maybe im just avoiding..tt's y it always lead to me hoping..
ws asked me..what i really want..and she advise me to srsly think through this..
i really shld think..in a more sensible way..instead of my 'happy go lucky' lifestyle in the past..which get me nowhere..i really hate to say this..but i really regretted..

for some reason..some guy friends ard me..look forward to army..and it goes the same for me..looking forward to a different phase of life..where we just do what we were told..obeying every single instructions..
maybe tt's where we are really disciplined..
where ppl like me think more sensibly..

superrr tired...

work has been the same..mood too...lol..tried to smile..tried to think of something else..but u just took up 100% of my mind..oh well..was talking to xd last night..she told me abt how she see me treating zy in the relationship..i thought alot..really alot..looked through the msn history..the replies i gave her in the past..just simply sucks..any gf would just leave..i really regret..and looks like..i always regret the things i've done..
but one thing i've never regret..is being tgt with her 3 years ago..
it is me..
not cherishing her ..
taking her for granted..
expecting her to know my problems..
not being caring enough towards her..
she is so busy..yet i get angry for minor things...
all in all..it only form one word..STRESS
the stress piled up..
it is totally unbearable for a normal human..less say a girl like her...

oxj pls think b4 doing anything man..
haiz

SUP
TIME PASS REAL FAST...this sentence..used to be my love..but maybe not anymore now..cos last week had been a torturing and terribly slow week..i dun like it..i really hope i can return to the past and correct all my mistake..most imptly..realise ur importance and cherish u even more..

enough said..no matter wad i say..wad i do..is useless now..wad i can only do..is to change..and most imptly..to wait..
To wait..is really easier said to be done..but is ok!not only will i wait..i will definitely show that i still care..show you that im a changed person..ready and waiting for ur command!.
!ready
JIAYOU OXJ!..



day 3...

BACK TO BLOGGING!
wow..been years since i last blogged..alot changes through these years..alot..really alot..anw..blogging just to express some thoughts here..

and yeah..i really learn alot ..esp the recent incident..really woke me up..i have to change..i NEED TO CHANGE..oh well..it is easier said than done rite?haha..

TODAY!..SAT!!2nd day!..i will wait..i will persevere..
ONGXUANJING!NEVER GIVE UP!(rLQ motto)!

i guess we just need more time..and hopefully fate..will really bring us together again..for i really love you..i really wanna cherish u again...
LEAVEIT2FATE!? sometimes..i hate this sentence..somtimes i like it..oh well..SUCK IT UP.tt's life..u give and take..

LISTEN UP!
U TAKE HER AWAY NOW..I WILL GET IT BACK!..(Y)..JIAYOU!!WOOHOOO